March 20th, 2007
a missed out entryzz...
WARNING... I M GOING TO DIGRESS ALOT
oH yar
resuLtz r out
like 2 days before yest entRy??
wEll, jus not in e moOd to blog bout it
i did promise to try to make this a happy and anti-depressant blog didn't I ?
haha, TRY kays ....
hMm, I will keep this short
I did enough to pass, or rather, gaurantee myself a spot on graduation day this May
but unfortunately, not that enough to qualify for the top e Us in Sg
dun ask mi why
the 10 percent vacancies for us poly mates is seriously only for the good and the VERY GOOD
which I happen not to fall into
so yeps yeps
i knw where I stand
complain also no point
but who am I to say
as what the excuse which I m bound to use when asked how I felt boutz my resultzz
I m pretty grateful for what I got at e amount of time n effort which I had pour into revising
what really upsets me R e courseworks
its like, WTF HAPPEN!??
as last minute as thEy r
its all a lot of hard wrk
A LOTTT
this includes 100 percent sleepless nights and many MSN discussions and copious amount of brain zapping research
is what I did truly that irrevelant or issit that i jus happen to have dwnright biased lecturers??
whateva... blame myself, blame ppl, blame luck...
I guess I ve lots to look into if I m to pursue e real reason behind
but in e end, there really isnt any point in doing so
move on, get over it and faced life againz
theres choices to be make, decisions to be carry out and certain chores to be done ...
no more digressINGG
i can jus go on and onzz
poLy did make e bEst
and also woRst of miee
but as much as I complain about this and that throughout thIs 3 years
whICh felt long @ one point but in a blink become over liao
i never really d much' regrets comin' here in e first place
not dAtz i really ve much of a chOice
it make mi realize things bout myself whiCh i dun even knw aboUt
botH gOOd & bad lah
but there r its share of rewards and lessons reaped
dat much, I ve to thank e ppl who ve nurture and mold mi sufficiently to face societyzz
but of course, learning dun stopz here
*looks ahead and smiles*
frozenbeads
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03:10 AM
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March 20, 2007
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March 19th, 2007
whats about the gUzheng huh
Stupid tabulas, cause my previous entry to be gone
Nvmz, shall type e entire entry out again
Stupid, stupid, stupid
Had this passion that has been nagging @ my thoughts for quite some time. Think its time for me to brought it up since I've pretty much got all e time in my hands nw. I want to get a GuzHeng and learn how to play it (of course!).
Those who knw mi might tInk i m crazy, with my music life already dedicated to piano and (recently) guitar. Why the sudden interest in string instrument? I too free huh !?
Well, I wana be multi talent, cannot meh? (kua kua kua)
Well, its not really a I-wake-up-one-day-decide-to-do-it kinda thing. Its more like an increasing curiousity which grows everyday, until it cant be contain anymore and I just have to find out how that sleek and beautiful instrument feels under my fingers.
I knw, I knw ... its gona be hard wrk, pain wrecked fingers and stuff but I shall put up with that, and of course a drain on my savings (which a huge part of it is suppose to be for my Uni fees) but I guess its gona be worth it ... playing e guZheng is a world class act kays
its also a matter of chinese pride, being chinese and knowing how 2 play @ least one chinese instruments, pretty cool ritey? (Least in S"pore lar)
Well, enough said ... I shall go GuzHeng hunting by this week and most probably sign up for classes in May
Dun laugh, I might be e next world class act wor
*Ducks as every1 throws eggs*
a real beauty (I mean e guzHeng hehe_)
Can any1 plsss buy mi any1 of thEse lovelies??
A gUzheng with chinese engravings ...
The state of art guzHeng ...
frozenbeads
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01:26 AM
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March 19, 2007
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March 16th, 2007
fUnny video... have a gOod laugh
Just a link to brighten up ur otherwise monotonous day... check out this funny YouTube video which features a M'sian rapper rapping bout his country (actually jus muar in particular)...despite e fact that I'm not M'sian and understood little Malay, I still find this pretty hilarious and if U r not easily offended by vulguar language (some bit of Hokkien language) and some implied sexual content (just implied only), go ahead and have a gOod laugh outta it ...
NoTe: I knew neither the person in e video or whoever that created this piece of work ...I received this link from a fellow friend... U either enjoy it or dun ... pls do not come after mi for any content U find offensive or disturbing ...
wEll, without further adue, here's e link...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nmmjPbYU1og
frozenbeads
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01:39 AM
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March 16, 2007
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March 14th, 2007
Backzz and updated ...
The semester is rightfully considered as over now ...
so is the entire poly journey ...
its been an emotionally as well as physically exhausting one ...
fill with regrets and gratification at the same time ...
at times, i look back
and wonder what went wrong wif e things dat r suppose to go right
depressing moments they are
there r also good moments
the cheer, fun and laughter shared with ppl
ppl who i can call friends
and who kinda lasted with mi till e last paper
but how long we can be in touch
and continued to stay e same
dat i really ve no answer to
i ve suffered quite some bit of setback in e friendship department
or maybe its just mi
always taking things way too seriously
but now dat its all over
the release and freedom which i once yearn for
turned out to be less attractive than i imagine
now its e crossroad between deciding and making choices
pretty important and costly choices
education has never been such a headache b4
i m praying hard for a place in any of the top 3 U s (NUS, NTU, SMU) in Sg ...
As much as I knw a poly student's (an average one I might add) shot at these institutions is pretty low ... think 10 percent versus the 90 percent strong population from the much academically favoured (and elite) A-level holders (no offence ) ... not to mention foreigners and scholarship holders ... we r pretty much headed for damnation
however, it doesnt hurt to apply, i guess every application is a chance, be it a very weak one, its better than no chance ritez ...
I knw i m contradicting myself, but yah, if i m advise any other poly student, i would still say the same thing, apply first, worry later...
there r still private schools for us Nus-Ntu-Smu rejects ... aint there
the final sem results, mother of all results, will be out this thursday
or if they r fast enough, it will probably be ready by tmlz
there r no gurantees on how it ll turn out to be
'e stakes r way too high tis time round
another shot at e semester means more $$, embarassment and of course, bye bye to a diploma (for the time beinG) and e grand university dream ...
apart from not being able to join fellow peers for e graduation ceremony in May...
to say i m not scared would be a total lie
i already tink i lost e chance of getting my grade 5 piano cert
after how i screwed up e exam process (another story which I m not going into)
but that is pretty much secondary to passing my final sem exams and securing a diploma by this year
i ve no intentions to see any of e same teachers or passing by any of the already more than familiar lecture hallways and tutorial classrooms
as much as they held fond memories for me there
i ll rather set foot into my poly institution of 3 years as visitor the next time rather than a student, or an undergraduate
Hope the next time i blog here, its good news that I blog about
this blog has been taking a rather depressing downturn lately
for whatever reasons i shall not say
no point lingering onto those bits and pieces of good things gone bad memories
just for a refreshing change, i ve gone for hair rebonding finally
a first for mi throughout all my years of teenhood
speaking of which, i m bidding farewell to it soon
the number 20 never seems as near as now
but i shall enjoy the final months of my 19-ness to its very end
if im in the mood, i will put up pictures of my new look in friendster
enough said, shall go sleep nw
on a side note, the new blog song is by Fiona Fung
If u tink it sounds familar, its because Joey Rong Zhu-er sung its canto as well as mando version titled My Pride ( or Girls with Wings) ,,,
but the english original version, despite identical to Joey's one, is pretty much performed with a style of its own, sweet, innocent and slow, like an infant taking its baby steps...
frozenbeads
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03:03 AM
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March 14, 2007
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March 7th, 2007
Very nice and touching melody ...
Forever Friend

Performed by: Fiona Fung (http://zhidao.baidu.com/question/12279099.html)
I believe I can love
You give me your loving care
I believe in what we are
I don't know where I would be
Without you staying with me
Sometimes, I'm lost in misery
You will take me all the way, I'm not afraid
Oh, you and me, hand in hand
To everywhere amazing
Be my friend, oh friend
We are forever friends
Oh baby, you give me all the love I need
You are the only one
I believe I can love
You give me your loving care
I believe in what we are
You will take me all the way, as day by day
Oh, you and me, hand in hand
To everywhere amazing
Be my friend, oh friend
We are forever friends
Oh baby, you give me all the love I need
You are the only one
[music]
You will take me all the way, as day by day
Oh, you and me, hand in hand
To everywhere amazing
Be my friend, oh friend
We are forever friends
Oh baby, you give me all the love I need
You are the only one
frozenbeads
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03:09 AM
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March 7, 2007
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